Friday, July 08, 2005
haii. why do i still have to pretend to be happy when i'm actually not? i'm really depressed nowadays. i don't know why. most probably due to my friends, the unhappiness that had caused in me. i really can't stand it. i pretended to be happy and sporty, in short being an extrovert in school. but the moment i stepped out of the school and on the way home, i was thinking how foolish i was. Why must i give way to them and change when i'm already MYSELF? Why should i bother to treat them as friends while they can't even be bothered with me? Are you all hyprocrites or what? If you all don't like me, just tell me. It's not that i can't live without you all.
Perhaps i should really take up sm's advice. 'Friends are only for entertainment.' Shoulden't take them so seriously. Life really sarks for NOW. What if i were to cut my wrist and end my life? I guess nobody will give a damn to it as well. haii.
Friday, July 08, 2005
