Saturday, April 03, 2010
我真的很难过， 心里真的很痛。
我真的不知道我人是到底出现了什么问题？为什么我得承受这一些？
我人又那么坏吗？我真的不知道为什么人人都要这样。
一年才那么一次，难道迁就我一天，让我真正开心，也那么困难吗？
我以为虽然没什么朋友，my family will always be there for me to lean on. But that really doesnt seem to be the case.
I feel they are more like my guardians than anything else
别人伤害我就算了，但是他们这样，我比谁都还要来得痛。真的很难受。
什么所谓的生日快乐一点也不快乐。
我现在真的很怕过生日。
若要我自导自演，我真的宁愿没有四月三日这一天。
Saturday, April 03, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
这一年才过了短短3个月，我的心情没有一天是真正开心，就除了看康熙来了以外，真的好难开心起来。
我看今年应该是suay爆了。不只生理上，或生体上，都开始出了一些状况。不知会不会严重下去，真的很害怕。
除了这些，也一直遇不到贵人。反而是一些断断续续伤害我的小人在侵入我的生活。
我真的不知道为什么他们一直要用言语来伤害我，把自己的快乐建筑在别人的痛苦上，这样对吗？
为什么他们可以那么insensitive? 难道他们不知道怎样适当的用词吗？
难道他们不知道他们所说的话，就仿佛用刀插入我体内，痛到要死吗？
你们到可说，不必理会他们说的话，但是，我也是人，我也有感觉的。
即使是开玩笑，心里也往往会有一点受创.
而且，如果是你最在乎的人对你说这些伤人的话，那真的很痛.
我的朋友也越来越少，没有几个可以真正跟我谈心，也没几个在care我过得好不好。
我人有这么不好吗？为什么是由我来承受这一切？
每天都会有想哭的念头，以前从来没这样。真的不喜欢这样。
我真的希望以后，我的小孩会有个开朗和幽默的性格。这样一来，他就不会像我一样，事事都看得那么重，一点也不可以接受打击。
Friday, March 19, 2010
Saturday, May 02, 2009
haven't been so depressed in a while. but i really hate it when i got accused of sth when im not.i seriously dont have any ill intentions. i seriously dont know whr u get tht idea from. i seriously have no idea that asking more qns means gl. i dont enquire for nuts if i already knew the answers for them.i rly put in effort n tried to make it sound in a nicer tone. i rly did. and apparently the erm, ah, hmm didnt help at all. is it just me or what?im fucking sad
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
我知道 离我我的生日 还有一段时间
虽然我不信教
但是 主 我的生日愿望就是希望
自己可以更坚强一点
我不要眼泪再那么轻易的掉下来
please ...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
shocked ttm.
okay..most of my friends know that my cool mum is a game addict. yesssss. addicted to neopets and viwawa.
and today, she was using her lappy on her bed. then i heard the unfamilar gaming sound coming out from there. and when i went to take a closer look..
ohmygeeeeeez its a facebook game!
me: omg mum what are you playing?!my mum: facebook game lor
me: huh u got facebook account meh?my mum: ya i got email what.
me: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah?!
then my dad continued: my friends keep asking me to view their facebook also leh
me: aaaaaaaaaaaah! -ran back to my room-
damn! they are over 50 already k i screamed cos i dont have an account k im v off bye k.
LOL
the reason why i dont have facebook account: cos i think its about the same as friendster
just that its better laaaa and i dont rly like it also even though i got an
alrd dead account liao.
but i may create an account in facebook at the later part of my life if i feel like stalking ppl HAHAHAHA
ok btw i enjoyed ytd outing with my sec sch friends! heheheh please plan more outings k thanks
SQUIRTING! LOL ;D
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Sunday, March 08, 2009
sucks to be me. its always like that ;(
why are they always so mean to me? all dua pao xian. say alrdy but nothing done.
its not only one particular person. but alot alot more ;(
why do i deserve all these shit?!
yes again. fuck my life.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Monday, March 02, 2009
many friends asked me why i dont gamble.
the reason is becos i fucking hate gamblers. especially when you got no much money left and you rather spend it on gambling. i fucking despise you.
yes its your own money you can do whatever with it.
but 身为一个成年人，你不是应该有那个能力去推断事情的重要性吗？
i hate the fact that im not rich.
每天都在左思右想钱的问题. 一会儿要考虑这东西的可用性，一会儿要担忧价钱的问题。fucking no life.
yes.fmylife.
Monday, March 02, 2009
